so that last time i updated here was literally a year ago...

a lot has changed...

I'm out of IB, well im partial, i left my lit class and my computer class.... less stress... kind of....

we got a new dog... she is sooo adorable...

finally a year since i got my lisence... we about a year...

finally own my own cell phone

looking for a job... so far... no luck....

yea, idk what else but a lot has changed and i am very glad....

OK, So I have had an account with xanga for awhile now, like 500 or so days. I now have a myspace, and people who have said that its addicting, well I have proved their statement correct.

Anywho, I have not done much of my homework, and I DO NOT want to go to school tomorrow, but I kinda have to, considering I need to somehow find a way to pass two of my classes, or at leat bring the grades up by basically two letters. Yep, an F in Chemistry, and she complains that its sooo easy when half the class gets diddly squat. Also, I'm prolly failing APUSH, but idk yet, considering my last dew essays were really in depth good. So maybe, just maybe he'll riase my grade up, or at least keep it at the D. I'll be glad with that, well actually not really. I won't be.

I also desperatly want to get out of the IB, one becuase its not getting any easier, and I just don't have the time to be sitting at home, slouched over a book my whole high school career. I need to first convinve my mom that its toooo hard for me, that I am unable to keep up with the work load. Also, I am lacking in sleep, basically since the first day of sophmore year. Its been a total hell. And the fact that I'm almost emotiuonally depressed, its not helping one tad bit. Maybe, just hopefully maybe my mom will let me take regular honors classes my junior and senior years. I really need that, especially if I want to do swimming during season, and then after season ends, I want to go back into Ballroom dancing. Well the Latin Ballroom Dancing. I won't have anytime for myself, and I seriously need the time. I also want to get a job. I still have one more year of polish school, and I want to finish it, so I can get my language college credit out of the way. Wow, its really going to be super hard for me to buckle down, but thats what I am going to do starting the second semester, I'll start now, I mean I might as well, maybe some of my grades will go up a couple percents or so. ARGH!!!! I hate having SO much stress. Its so not good for me. I am unable to sleep at night because I have all my homework and crap running through my head. I swear the IB thinks we have no life.

nieh, off going to read my damn APUSH stuff. I mean honestly, do the teachers not understand that anytime we have a week or more of a BREAK really means a break from school and all affilaiing things. I mean 2005 has been the worst so far. One, I had to summer, because of Geometry, adn no winter break because of the homework, which I didn't even do, and range, which was more of a benefit because I got my permit. But all other than that, it SUCKED MAJOR...

bye...
-bella-

OK, so I haven't updated since a little before the state test for drivers ed...

what happened with those...I was the only one to pass both parts with 100% on each. But I mean its OK, it just proves to my parents that I want this soo bad, and maybe they'll get me the car I want, it doesn't even have to be that car, theres a car for sale, an effin volvo, and its one of those newer ones too. It so....wow, I want it really bad. I also have a plan to go to London and Paris with Joani, Maha, and Alex, whose birthday was Yesterday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEX!!!!!!

My chemistry teacher is failing me, I hate her sooo much...whoa I should watch out what I type here, but its true I hate her because she's making me lack in motivation towards the one career I have wanted for so long, knowing that I am going to have to take that class again in college, I need to look for alternatives. I also hate my APUSH class, but its ok, I'll pull the grades up, I have to. I just have have HAVE to.

I have to get my computer cleaned out....again, this time because of the virus I apperntly downoladed unknowingly, but I also want to have a clean computer for the new year, don't ask.

What else...uhm yea I am going to be cutting my hair on saturday, OMG joani got her hair cut and color, she looks sooo adorable with it. I love it. heh now it gives me a bit of an idea what I should do, i am also going to do color, but my mom will do that for me the next day at home, that way its nice and fresh for school on monday. whoot whooot. Fashion show is going to be this upcoming week, I have my outfit done and all, but hair is a bit of a problem, cuz I have no idea what I am going to do after I get it cut. argh...must think...makes brain hurt but must.....ehhh out of ideas.

Off to do pointless homework....see, a few of my teachers have taken away my motivation....its not a good thing.....

I made a myspace btw...its www.myspace.com/bellka

adios
-bella-